been a while, but I can get to that later.
I need to jot down thoughts/feelings while I have them.

today I'm feeling really connected.  or, maybe inspired or motivated are more accurate.
listening to some podcasts and I feel more confident that ordination is what I want and need to pursue.
I still question the legitimization of theology/education or perhaps authority (in the eyes of others), but I feel I want to use that education and "authority" to encourage individual spiritual experience.  I feel people need to know there is more to church than 90 minutes on sundays.
Listening to people talk about theological or spiritual topics, I feel I lack the eloquence with words to express appropriately the ideas and feelings in order to have people understand spirituality of Christianity. these on radio or in podcasts or in books do it so well and it inspires me. I want to do that to bring Christianity in all it's beauty and wonder to each individual person and open and guide their spirit to truth.

perhaps it just a matter of writing more or reading more or sheer practice.

back to work.

love,

jo

a need to record things (7/2015)

I feel it is important to record things.

Thoughts. 

Feelings. 

Happenings. 

Yet, I haven't done that in so long. 

I feel I am entering a phase in my life where this desire (perhaps need?) to record is resurfacing, as if I buried it or just tried to leave behind me. 

I need to procure an actual journal to give myself completely free license to record anything.  I feel using this medium requires me to use some restraint, but I subconsciously do so even though I've previously said I use this as a journal. 

I can't be entirely open and honest here, can I?

Cheers to thinking. And, recording.  And, living.  And, loving. 

jo